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"Man, there's no boundary line to art! If it sounds good and feels good, then it IS good! You can't dig it if you don't dig it, ya dig? The possible has been tried and failed. Now it's time to try the impossible. Damn the rules, it's the feeling that counts. You've got to be good or as bad as the devil. Don't play what's there, play what's not there. It's taken me all my life to learn what not to play. If you think this is weird, just look at yourselves. Learn to deal with the valleys and the hills will take care of themselves.

You don't know what love is, until you've learned the meaning of the blues, until you've loved a love you've had to lose. It's all about creation and surprise. It just needs to be appreciated and watered like flowers. You have to water flowers. These peaks will come again. Whatever you do, it's over when you do it - but first you have to do it.


(The preceding is a pitter patter of sound collected from quotes of geniuses, Monk himself, Sun Ra, Dizzy, Sonny Rollins, Ornette Coleman, Chet Baker, Mingus and more. Together they all speak of Jazz, of sound, of creation, of building and bleeding art. My pathways of experience have not put me in their shoes, but in similiar shoes.)

I've frequented three very different sessions of shared creation in my time on what could be called a regular basis and experienced many more on a less regularity.

BULLET SPACE
In the basement, sometimes the lobby of a space owned by the tenants with no landlord, a group of students from different schools and different walks of life would gather together in a circle and try out our work on each other. "Guided" by John Farris, yet completely organized and facilated by myself, Patrick, and my brother Nicholas Isabella along with a few others, we cheered and grilled each other to get our work better. We smoke, we drank, we partied, we fought, we danced. Sometimes we'd end up across the street at A Gathering of the Tribes. Other times I don't know. One night I found myself laid out almost dead after too many painkillers and a mix of alcohol, but quickly recovered by my friends. Another night my friend attacked the young person I was seeing at the time and we had to descalate that. Another time another friend attacked another friend. As I said, we fought. Sometimes John would fight us, sometimes we'd fight ourselves. It was all part of it. Then we'd write about it and perform the next time.

URBANA NYC at the BPC
This was HOME for me on Thursdays for I'm not sure how long. I essentially was a volunteer employee who also took to the stage when I could. We had major guests who would sometimes become friends of mine, such as muMs the Schemer. Working closely with Taylor Mali, Shappy Seasholtz, Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz was just a joy. When something of mine failed, as long as COA laughed, or Shappy appreciated an obscure reference or Taylor, a master poet recognized that I had an inkling of what I was doing it all worked out. Getting to know Bob Holman over the years was a treasure, getting the chance to meet Jim Carroll and poke his mind, becoming friends enough with Amber Tamblyn that David Cross knows who I am. I got to learn a lot of production stuff, organizing, setting up. Skills I gained in college and on stage previous but that I discovered could be applied to any type of performance. The same skills I would use years later for other kinds of productions.

HI CHRISTINA
I discovered Hi Christina through Amy Uzi, but the friendship I built with Fritz and Christina was so strong and fast. The venue for Hi Christina would change multiple times over a few years, but I always felt great to return there and through it I had one of my greatest friendships in David Shifren. David and I were destined to meet no matter what, but it was through Hi Christina that we bonded. We were both in their feature film as wedding guests and attended various events hosted by them. David wasn't always at Hi Christina, but I definitely was and gained other friendships through, such as Laura Lee Gulledge and through her others and the small worlds that Laura and I both occupied. I probably would've never met my neighbor Sarah that I see frequently who would then later be living with my long time friend Kyle Baker, who she used to date back in high school if not for the small world that all started through Hi Chrisina. Not long ago I actually bumped into Fritz while attending a movie event. It'd had been a couple years actually since we'd seen each other (as we all know COVID changed our lives), but it also told me, we are meant to be in each others lives. Always... making what we make that we make.
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A bit on playing with the prompt:
Instead of Thelonius' quote itself... I bounced off another Monk quote that always inspired me. Then I thought, Jazz is that thing, it has no rhyme, but it also has ryhthm. It has no rules, but it is a craft. Hence, what if the words of not just Monk, but all his contemporaries and friends could be combined?
That's just remixing though. There's artistry to it, but without something to hold it together it's just a collage of nothing. Hence, I went deep into my memoir repository to create three paragraph stories that obviously could all be entire chapters or even books if I went deep. (I use to actually write extensive notes about URBANA that I could expand to fuller tales). I decided to tackle it in home game the same way I would if I was still IN the game. So if you read this? Thanks, hope you enjoyed it.
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when i was very young
my dream was to be a muppet
in ways i've achieved that
in persona and performance
but also being friends with a group of felted friends
i've only met once in person
yet spent seven years with 
and consider family
 
as a young wrestling fan
never did i ever think 
i'd end up deep in the industry
in multiple roles
in and out of the ring
despite in college doing a one man play about wrestling
or choreographing a fight scene
based primarily on wrestling stuff
 
going to culinary school
was a whim of a concept
after having graduated college
then spent a year working
at HBO and through 9/11/2001
 
had that job didn't suddenly end
there was a chance I'd still be at it today
if through work after culinary
i discovered my path was not to be the same as most chefs
who knows where I'd be now
 
yet odd jobs from
offices to retail
mascot to management
the occasional paid acting position
paid writing jobs
 
a foray into photography
leading in to documentary work
covering marketing, conventions and interviews
promoting everything from music to books
 
and now my life has took a pause as it has before
along routes and roads i had not even mentioned
stopping trajectory
i am told i should have been selfish
when it came to my dad
and now the same
with my mom
but my soul didn't allow it
 
still I have done much
been many places
had adventures that sound fake
so I guess... yes
my life is interesting. 
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You may or may not know that I went to culinary school. While in Culinary school I learned a lot but I also learned that I like to take my own road with cooking. I tried working back of house in kitchens, but the factory like work and creating someone elses recipes to a tee just wasn't the kind of work for me in a field that screamed for creativity. I could do it in an office or when needed to survive menial labor or retail, but nothing in the creative field. Anything in that field in which my gears turned but I couldn't contribute was not a position for me. I've been lucky to do private catering, but my truest dream has always been a pop-up that I made whatever my whim was and groceries supplied. Almost like say any cooking competition show but with no rules or regulations, just my mind and my skills and your trust.

I've had this dream for various businesses actually. Travel agency (there is actually a company that exists like this, they plan your destination and itinerary), but your trusting my research and your coming to me because you want the trip I would plan based on just some select concepts of your desires but also that you more so want to experience MY desires, then I could take more trips and discover more things for other people to do.

This would work for a publishing company, a film and television studio, etc. Just... trust me, because you do, because if I steer you wrong or you don't like what I create for you, then you are 1 of billions. I just need that first opportunity with each individual. Which when you think about it other than saying how you like your meat cooked, or that you'd like a specific genre, or that you have a barest concept, you are essentially with everything you don't make yourself, trusting someone else.

I just want that extra step of trust though. Frequently I get it, especially when putting together plans for friends, but not ALWAYS and frequently when they don't just relinquish everything to me or make me feel like I need to go with parts of their plan even when it goes against my judgment, ending up with me making a plan for me and myself and my friends after saying “We should've just listened to you”. I'm talking about the past here, not the present. That's only cause my life as a whole has changed so much.

Yet, still, if you'd just trust me to tell you what movie to watch, what game to play, what book to read or just let me make you a meal and trust my weirdness (outside of my allergies and yours), we'd all just be so much better off. You could even trust me to tell you what to write, but my main tip for that is, write what you know. I know nonsense, poetry and memoir. I'm also fairly good at a review of something I enjoyed when I choose to tackle it.
 

The nine of diamonds
a card in a deck of 52
or 54 or 55 when you include Jokers and that Branded card
A line in the desert
won't last for long
it is sand and wind will come
the dusty trail blossoms

Mind the gap
when crossing the platform
kick JK in the ovaries
it so treasures thinking gender
is only based on false genetic coding

Tone deaf punk rock music is fun
when micro dosing on experimental hybrids of DMT, AMT, 5-MEO and LSD
Pour me a cocktail of mercury and orange Juice and
meet me on the other side of the door.

Passage Number Two arrived later
THC glowed like glistening golden warrior
Standing in a field of Lavender and Eucalyptus
Olfactory explosion
sensory overload

Have your dreams made sense? 
Are they memories?
If when unrealistic, does that mean they didn't happen?
The Bunny rabbit with cybernetic parts
will you find them where you lost saw them?

We are in an amazing time for streaming entertainment, especially for someone deep into comics and the media created from it. With Agatha All Along on Disney+ and The Penguin on HBOMAX we have alternative versions of stories told in some way from Marvel and DC respectively, allowing new fans and old to discover something almost with same information other than some recognition. Those two shows along with The Franchise which pokes fun at the production end of shows like these bigger franchise partners major films, yet while also given fans an entirely new comics universe that if the show is successful enough can be explored as all evidence points to a full bible for the Maximum Comicsverse. Yes indeed, a wonderful time to be a fan of... fandom.

{written The Real LJ Idol-Mini Idol 2024-Week13-Omakase}

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never broken a bone
crashed a car
lost a home 
survived a natural disaster
but my heart
my soul
my time
my mind
they've been through the ringer
imploded, exploded, thrown in a blender 
just like the song by Eve 6 
sent to oblivion
 
a father with parkinson's
gone when i was 30
not long after 
a breakup of toxic relationship
i was blind to the entire time
for six years prior 
taking care of him 
middle of the night clean up
six years after
recovering from it all
 
a mother with multiple issues
a bag to change
a life to worry
my self allowing me 
to smash upon invisible walls
dusting off  
getting back up
again and again
 
the years in between
discovery, recovery
accidents of the life
we all live
choices made
scattered dreams
 
yet still standing 
ready to do it all again
and more

{written for LJ Mini-Idol Week 12: From the Wreckage}

 
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When I was truly young one of the biggest influences that entered my brain patter was Andy Kaufman. His foreign man and congo act went deep into my mind. It would influence almost everything I would do as a performer when solo. I didn't really get to delve into that until college though. College was where I first got practice speaking non existent languages yet still being understood, or speaking nonsense that was English but didn't make sense like Samuel Beckett dialogue. I performed a chaotic musical performance all improved with tons of gibberish and skat in my junior year even. I wish video footage of this existed. For all I know it does, but I don't have it. I unfortunately didn't become cognizant of capturing and documenting as much as I could till 2003 and not seriously till 2006.

It was after college where things took their real hold of going on stage and just doing complete nonsense, unplanned, saying words that didn't exist, singing random lyrics that were words but they didn't belong together necessarily or were just complete hooleyhoo and hogwash and ballywick. One of these performances even made it onto The Best of NYC-URBANA 2004, as a bonus track.* In the CD credits I am mentioned as part of the production team (actually the Junior Deputy Assistant Executive Director, a ridiculous title). Yet not total nonsense as I handled a lot on the production end of a weekly poetry slam when not taking to the stage to either improv, or read something I wrote THAT day in a haphazard mishmosh of a story that made sense but was also complete nonsense, like a love letter to Miss Piggy.

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(I also composed the backing track on this live performance in music creation software)

As life takes turns as it tends to do, I was actually away from a regular space performing my silliness focusing on graffiti, street art and photography. Although after more than a few years I found myself at an open mic curated by my now forever friends Fritz and Christina known as HiChristina and I would follow them along to multiple spaces, making new friends along the way and finding new ways to bring my nonsense to a performance space. Being it gibberish, randomly written on the spot songs, or just telling stories that would meander and detour before coming back in a myriad of just pure silliness. Here are just some examples from various venues and evenings:

 

It's been a few years since I've hit the stage, but I think if you read my work, or heard some of my ideas then you know how much I still treasure nonsense and especially gibberish. If I thought people would attend and I knew how to facilitate I'd give gibberish classes, as it really is a skill. Alas, when you have folks in politics just talking it without meaning to I don't know how much of a skill it is anymore. That's another topic all together though.

Now for fun, a paragraph or two in written gibberish nonsense.

“Shibblelbledy pecakced daudrily. Todosdoe tek Fruumy Fresnukles gooshry clen sodden, folosoed trell, lacklardy lense reposesen feashishly. Auk oden rebelsen guire wan sienesen, jetcrueller sparklesamsin. Gunceau, git crodder vlig bije forbodden.”

Lesson one in making a ball of yarn is to gather many worms, lick the worms on their toupees and the worms produce steel that can be melted and turned into the proper material for a large ball. The yarn ball will then come alive and recite the prior paragraph and everyone will smile while eating buckets full of carrots and discarded toenails.

{written for LJ Mini-Idol Week 11: Haver}

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Retranslation/Adaptation
presented minds
designed to titilate
maybe to capitulate
the void of inner feelings
to breath new life 


(all quotes paraphased)
 
Hangin' 'round downtown by myself, had too much caffeine and I had so much time to sit and think about myself. And then there she was, like double cherry pie. Yeah, there she was in platform double suede like disco super-fly lemonade . I smell sex and candy here. Who's that lounging in my chair? Who's that casting devious stares in my direction? Mama, this surely is a dream, yeah, dig it. - John Wozniak (1)
 
I whispered my feelings, 
as I knew how strong they were 
the multiple hues could be blinding
to even the most atypical eyes
the radio blasts that Curtis Mayfield
I can't just help thinking
rattled by the Folgers in me
'rollin in the hay with them
would be a parade'
I hope it happens 
before I wake up
 
I know a girl who thinks of ghosts. She'll make you breakfast, she'll make you toast. She don't use butter or cheese. She don't use jelly, or any of these. She uses vaseline. I know a guy who goes to shows. When he's at home an' he blows his nose, he don't use tissues or his sleeves. He don't use napkins, or any of these. He uses magazines. I know a girl who reminds me of Cher. She's always changin' the color of her hair, but she don't use nothin' that you buy at the store. She likes her hair to be real orange. She uses tangerines. - Wayne Coyne (2)
 
Stepped into the 24 hour diner
3 o'clock in the morning
its five o'clock somewhere
Order an Edna's Lunchbox
Waitress is confused 
I look up at her
Then I see the nameplate
and shake my head
Good thing the Spirit of Sonny Bono
rocked the fucking stage
 
Now, I've never felt the presence but I know you're always near; And I've never heard the calling but somehow you've led me right here. So I'm not looking for burning bushes or some divine graffiti to appear. I'm just begging You for Your wisdom and I believe You're putting some here; 'Cause I can sniff, I can see. I can count up pretty high but these faculties aren't getting me any close to the sky, but my heart of faith keeps pounding so I know I'm doing fine but sometimes finding You is just like trying to smell the colour nine. - Chris Rice (3)
 
I saw a perfume ad
The Number Purple from Daniel 5:1-6 
it was esoteric 
surreal yet grounded
a machine ticked digitally up and down
flying among stars 
holographic images flashed
a brick wall covered in passages
yet the creator was no where around
 
A thought in my head, I think of something to do. Expressions tell everything. I see one on you. When I was invisible, I needed no light. You saw right through me, you said "Was I out of sight?" When I was in England town the rain fell right down. I looked for you everywhere till I'm not around. My love, she comes in colors. You can tell her from the clothes she wears. - Arthur Lee (4)
 
I'm a cipher here in Edinburgh
torrential deluge 
hiding in the alcove
waiting, wanting,
faces in the crowd
happy, sad and in between
you in Josephs dreamcoat
people singing "We can see you"
so can I; you see me too

{written for LJ Mini-Idol Week 10: synesthesia}
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 I have had a ton of careers in my life but where I really have worked the most is entertainment, be it as performer or production. It has something I have done professionally (as in paid) since I was as young as 10 years old. In the many years since then I have worked with and had more than just work conversations with many a famous celebrity. Some I met just through circumstance of being a Union member. Others through my actual social butterflies. I could just list names but I'd rather tell some really fun stories.

In my first ever actually paid commercial gig of something that actually aired nationally on televisions, my co-star was legendary character actor Fyvush Finkel. He played my grandfather. It was a non-speaking role for everyone in the commercial spot for an airline. The only speaker was a baby voiced by Lorenzo Music (most famous for Garfield). Many many years later Fyvush and his sons Ian and Elliot performed at Queens Theater in the Park which is mere blocks my home. Our family had made connections with the theater through various things through the years, so I wrote a letter to Fyvush to be brought backstage. He invited us and even actually remembered who I was despite it just being a small commercial.

In my teenage years I worked on a variety of film sets. I had worked on many actually from 10-17 before going to college, but when I was 16 and 17 I had two of my best experiences which also have allowed unexpected happenings as an adult. I worked on A Bronx Tale, the Robert De Niro film written by Chazz Palminteri and starring Joe Pesci as well. It was really fun on that set to discover that even when I was still a short 5'4 (I got a growth spurt overnight in college of 4 inches), that Joe Pesci was shorter than me. On this set as well, was my at that point longtime acquaintance Mario Bosco. We had worked on multiple films together over the years and got along despite a 5 year age difference because Mario would be cast in roles that were younger than me even. Mario and I spent time with Lillo Brancato Jr. and some girls he knew. Because I was so short at the time I actually was a stand-in for Francis Capra. My greatest experiences though were that both Chazz and Robert took time to talk to me when we weren't filming. Long in depth conversations. Fast forward many years later again, I actually see Mr. De Niro in public sometimes when in the city. Just randomly. He'll usually greet me before I can greet him. This has also happened with Chazz. Mario and I are actually also still acquaintances to this day. It amazes me that out of the pretense of being a co-worker/employee these men still are warm to me all this time later.

One of the other films during this that I worked on was Flirting with Disaster. They were doing pick up shots (scenes shot after the film has finished that they discover need to be redone or added in after test screenings) and I was Ben Stiller's stand-in. Yes, Ben is THAT short. While Patricia Arquette was a complete sweetheart, something must gotten to Ben that day as he was very testy as was director David O. Russell. Not testy though and for whatever reason decided to treat me like I was their son for the day were Jerry Stiller and Anne Meara, Bens parents. They weren't in the film but visited the set anyway and couldn't be kinder. It was a long shoot with lots of down time and then out of nowhere to avoid overtime it was cut . It was all very weird, but Jerry and Anne still were amazing. Another fast forward, and again to Queens Theater, Anne and Jerry have a show there. Another letter sent backstage, a sweet little reunion and amazement that they remember me. I haven't gotten to see Ben again that I remember and definitely not Patricia, but I think the next time I see Ben it'll be fine, as long as he isn't bothered that I don't care about sports. He's really into watching sports.

I could easily go on about other famous stars you may or may not know by name I met on movie and television sets, but I think it's extra interesting that when I went off to college my encounters with the famous or in some cases future famous continued. In my freshmen year Soleil Moon-Frye (aka Punky Brewster) was attending, she didn't stay long enough for me to ever even get the guts to talk to her, but ask fellow students of mine. She was there. I had a good cadre of well known professors as well. Peter Brook, Sekou Sundiata, Leslie Lee. It was three fellow students who I knew fairly well that are truly of note though. I choreographed a fight scene with rapper Matisyahu (then still just Matt Miller) in a Commedia Dell'Arte, we also worked in a solo performance workshop together. I published some of Travis Jeppesen's earlier work in a self published magazine me and my best friend Nick put together and I would just sit around with Jake Shears (of the Scissor Sisters) outside classes on occasion. I really was that much a social butterfly. I was all around the city too. During this time I became friendly with Tim Robbins cause his son loved comics, Tim would stop me on the street randomly and still does to this day. I also met Ted Danson when his daughter was interested in attending my college.

Since college I'd returned to film, worked on multiple Broadway and Off-Broadway shows, met famous and semi-famous people and their parents through just circumstance. I feel I've name dropped enough and I could continue to name drop, but then it would seem like bragging even though it really just is my life and the best stories of my life.

The same goes with my most recent entertainment career field of wrestling (which actually goes back 20 years, but was only hardcore serious where I was helping create it from the ground up). The people I have trained with, worked with, gone to bars with, had long in-depth conversations with would read like a whos who, People who have been or are currently major stars in WWE, AEW or TNA. I don't even know which names or stories or anecdotes I would tell in such a telling in which in section could've been an entire chapter to itself.

I haven't even gotten into people in the music industry, writers, comics artists, street artists (people whose work you've seen, but I've actually helped them put up) or people from my early life. I shared a teacher with Sarah Jessica Parker at one point for example.

I'll leave you with this. It all sounds like an imaginary story, there's no way I've met all these people or had such interactions with them. I must just have a vivid imagination. If that was true, trust me I wish the following story wasn't true. I was walking along fifth avenue outside of Trump Hotel and started getting a bloody nose, this happened frequently in my teenage years, we never found out what causes the bleeds but they eventually stopped. Donald happened to just be outside the hotel at this time, saw me, handed me an embroidered handkerchief and told me I should go inside and head to the main level restrooms. Once inside the bathroom, Pauley Shore or someone who looked like him just happened to be in there and seeing my bloody nose thought I was a coke user and offered me some. I politely declined, washed up and headed on my way. This memory has sat in my head along with all of them. If they're all lies, then so am I.


{wrtten for LJ Idol Mini 2024-Week 9: It aint braging if it's true}

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[I had taken a 50mg gummy with hopes capturing something weird yet beautiful, while knowing lots of stuff would fall in the proverbial "net" and I would just have to deal with that... this was the impetus to the prompt and using it to inspire the following.]

Pulsating rainbows bouncing to a silent beat over reality of a monitor where you see these words. Spinning round and round, intersecting,like a DNA strand in a rotating ouroborus position. As different light sources  hit  whiteness to darkness turning your view from of a triangle in a triangle to a circle in a circle, the rainbow changhing hues, to a fingerprint maze with eye in the middle in multiples cut like pizza style triangles in a circle.
 
Among this other visions pour in, momentarily distorting the most focused. They go so fast you can't contain them but they are still there strong enough to cause what was in sense a pause. Then processing the visual image while trying to describe it and then zoning out so long in an absolutely other focus and direction of pure reality while still getting a reflection of the rainbow image zipping between here and there and everywhere. Then pulled away for another task right before typing this sequence.
 
Returning from the task to continue typing the progression of the vision to type of the zoning out from that itself envisoning multiple visions of the auditory as visuals in your head while your vision is looking towards where the words you see n front of you currently were created but in the narrative we are far beyond that.


an AI created image of the previous words
 
Taking the time to have AI to actually do a very good concept of almost capturing what my words are attempting to recreate from my mind to your mind as exactly as possible while knowing asking AI is no different than asking you to try and paint it yourself but know I have probably changed your experience by sharing it.
 
After I finished writing and answering and posting I went to find something new to enjoy for a few hours. 

[Post-Post: The auditory was WWE's Bash in Berlin, the task was organizing and discarding tote bags, the post auditory/visual background to a overlayed visual as well as auditory only to closed eyed visuals was The Fall Guy (2023)

{wrtten for
LJ Idol Mini 2024-Week 8: Bycatch}
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Being a social butterfly

does not mean I always have wings

Frequently, more than you would assume

leaving the abode, the cocoon as it is

dancing around the lights

flickering happy, bouncing around

does not come easy

 

Even when physically out in the world

willing to be and go everywhere

I will stand on the proverbial wall

sometimes it'll be a bar stool

other times as close to the door possible

or even the middle of the room

trying to be invisible

or feeling like I am

 

There have been multiple events

where I know I would greeted

gladly, treated like the best

but the inner battle

is lost quickly

although fought all night

the desire to live

is shot down by the ennui

the unnerving, not understandable

mental breakdown

scared of interactions

fear of what?

I do not know

 

That is the problem

the fear of not knowing

what you are afraid of

having zero fear

which is your biggest fear itself

will you say something wrong

is going worth it

is staying home worth it

if you do one

you can't do the other

and then if you do go out

anything “bad” that may happen

you're left wondering

but if you had stayed home

it could have been worse

vice versa

as it goes

it has, it will, it has, it will, it has... it will... it has... stop...go...go...stopgostopstopgostopgostop


{written for LJ mini-Idol 2024: Week 7-hikikomori}

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I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me, and I walk alone - Green Day (2004)

The truth is, I do not walk alone. I have been very lucky on this path we call life to have people who have walked the paved and unpaved roads (literally and metaphorically) with me. Be it the dirty streets of the city, the abandoned rails of a train line, the dirt and rock mountains of a beach park, the alleys and hidden corners of a town, the bumpy floor of a convention center, or the deepest darkest deep mystery of the human psyche. Yet, I have also truly took my feet both covered and bare along many a destination with me, myself and I. That may sound like three people, but it is only one. Trust me, I'm only good at math when there's a dollar sign in front of it, but I can at least count to ten.

Lately my walking has not been alone. If and when I go outside during the last few months as I write this in August of 2024 I am pushing a wheelchair with a 135 pound woman in it and then sitting in long waits with my mind in patience. When I do walk alone, it isn't pretty or safe and it has gotten me in trouble. This is what that stress path is. You crawl before you walk, sometimes I wish I could go back to crawling. That isn't the way it is though, so to help one breath I look backwards at the footsteps made along the way and treasure every path and walk I have done.

One of the most interesting walking alone I ever did was in various days in Las Vegas. Actually walking from my hotel at the Excalibur all the way to Treasure Island then back again on the other side of the strip via Flamingo on my second day there in 2021 had affirming “life can be hard, but also awesome and rewarding”. It was not a direct route but calculating it all together would be around 7 miles walking, essentially alone. It was also a walk that was truly full of lessons and living in just one day. A day that began with discovering the joys of going down a slide and standing under a man-made water fall in the wee hours of the morning before actually proceeding with your day. If you have never gotten to feel perfectly tempered water crashing on your shoulders and back, especially the day after travel and lots of living you have not had that experience to your life and made it more bountiful.

   
This day continued with choosing to have my one and only meal of the day be the buffet at The Cosmopolitan Hotel known as The Wicked Spoon. My meal there was a lesson in gluttony. I ate so much I actually wrote it all down. This isn't about that meal, because I didn't walk, I sat, but boy did I journey, through countries and delicacies. That also lead to the purest of guiding paths to every bathroom I could make it to while still enjoying my day. Visiting bathrooms doesn't sound like something fun, but in Vegas it is an adventure. The theming of a hotel continues to their public bathrooms. It forced me to see the Bellagio gardens, the amazing sculptures of the Roman empire in Caesar's, the aquariums of fishes, the mermaids of The Mirage and so much more.

 Outside  the Bathroom of Caesar's  

One of the most exhilarating experiences was having taken the walk to see something that now can only be seen via recordings and memories, having been torn down July 2024. The Mirage Volcano with its original music composition and spectacular choreographed fire and water show. Having this in front of ones own eyes lead to that continuing journey which only you can deliver yourself on even though the universe may conspire against you getting to every discovery you planned. You can't walk this same path I walked, at least not as I did. Spiritually, you can, the enlightenment, the pure joy of the existing world merged with the created. You can find it.

You can find it in many places. Some of them places I have been. Some I have never been. Some I will never get to go. Sometimes just in your mind, for the footsteps in our mind are the ones we truly are alone in and we can walk anywhere. Absolutely anywhere... a boulevard of broken dreams, a street of forbidden promises, a valley of endearing escapes, a hill of vaulted exuberance. It can all be reached, just take one step forward and walk; or roll, or crawl, whatever you feel most comfortable, it is your body and it is your mind!

[All photos by me from my trip.]

{written for LJ mini-Idol 2024: Week 6-“The path is made by walking”}

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The professional wrestling industry is a wild place to be employed. I've done almost all the gigs one can do, in-ring performer, production, creative, human resources, management. The only thing I haven't had the “pleasure” of is promoting or running my own company from top to bottom, but that is a large financial undertaking even just for one show if you plan to have it done right, proper and memorably. I started getting into the behind the scenes of professional wrestling through circumstances right out of college, before my first full time job that wasn't acting. From day one till now I've met people in this industry who at times were definitely doing their best to hide their true selves, wearing a human mask that if you looked too closely you'd see something too suggest the reality. When that reality came out, it would make you question everything or reassure any weird feeling you had about this person to being who they presented to be.

We see this in lots of the entertainment industry, be it movies, television, writers, animators, comics creators, musicians, directors, etc., etc. There's the version we come to accept as being who they are, then the reality comes out and you reflect back and sense all the little signals that were there and it makes “sense” or maybe you don't, but you realize something always felt off. Something about them appearing “human” was almost too human, the perfection of humanity, the reflection of humanity because they were by the concepts of humanity, considerably inhumane.

This isn't always the case. Sometimes society itself was the one who was wearing a human disguise. Society will at times infiltrate into a celebrities life and if that celebrity doesn't live up to their frequently hypocritical standards they view them in a manner. This has happened with certain wrestlers as well. Your favorite people will not always have been good people, or treated the people in their life the way they should've. This isn't anyone's business, but they make it so. In those cases I sometimes think everyone ends up looking like some facsimile of a human and it always makes me uncomfortable. More uncomfortable that I don't know who scares me more.

As broad as this concept can be, in just wrestling itself, here are three examples of all avenues of exploration this can take and how it also can end based on degrees. All three of these are people I've worked with closely in some fashion and only know where they are now because that is how the internet works.

David Starr presented a persona of someone seeking to create a wrestling union, he was the top star in multiple companies and a vocal liberal as well. He was on top of the world when accused by multiple exes of verbal, mental, and physical abuse. He denied every allegation, but he also proceeded to drop out of the wrestling industry as a whole. When he resurfaced he announced that he was seeking therapy essentially in a round about way admitting to the allegations. He is now a body builder under his real name which to my personal eye also looks like a human suit instead of a real human.

Joey Ryan did the trick of having his wrestling persona be a reflection of who he would later be revealed to actually be. He got women to consent to being grabbed by the boobs as a wrestling move. He pulled lollipops from his tights and got fans to actually lick the lollipop as being part of the show. It was all seen as clown stuff, something so inhuman that no one would believe it was just someone being themselves. That turned out to be the case though. He did an amazing job of hiding this by having his non performing persona be shy, straight laced and truly just being an actor, but it was when he wasn't in the ring, but in public when he was putting on the human suit. The allegations brought on David Starr opened a movement of women speaking out as a whole against many wrestlers, Joey was one of them. He got out of wrestling, but also went to therapy, landed on his feet and now gets regular acting work, living life as if it never happened.

Rude Boy Riley is sadly another story. I trained with him. I am still close with people I met during the same time I met him. He was legitimately someone you'd never expect to find out what you found out. He had just signed with the WWE the same week that he was arrested for crimes not to be spoken. He pleaded guilty a year after his arrest and received a very light sentence. He has not been seen since. He wore the truest of human suits. One that hid very well, but now when seen seems just that...

and I can't just think of how many more must be wearing human suits, who at times we sense to be not exactly human, but we look past, out of fear, out of … just fear.


[Written for the LJ Idol Mini-Season 2024-Week Four: Uncanny Valley]

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Glitter everywhere

No matter what, it did not matter

no glitter at the party?

No glitter at dinner?

If you went to Chez Shifren

you ended up with

glitter... everywhere

 

Borderline psychosis

with a heavy dollop of generosity

a smidgen of charm

smattering of genius

a blanket of caring

room full of mess

lack of self awareness

depression

destruction

failure stemmed from success

easy to love

hard to not

even at his scariest

even when he pushed you away

violently at times

 

More friends than anyone

I'd ever known

a family that adored him

consistent people, consistent sex

money to have whatever he wanted

yet he felt more alone

than any single person I had ever known

a living embodiment of Richard Cory

in many ways

as he had tried to take his own life

multiple times over the years

only to finally lose his life

to all those attempts

when the world as a whole

forced us all to become lonely and alone

and unable to come to each others rescue with ease

 

I have not had many close friends

ones I truly felt were just that

over the years honestly

but David had become one of them

one of those people I could call

at any hour to discuss

the world and its idiosyncrasies

in intelligent thoughtful deep ways

who would call me at any hour

to tell me he was taking me

to this concert or this show

randomly and always something huge

 

None of my other close friends

were like David

each friend had/has their own very different roles

all were the same role too

confidant, shoulder, spiritual partner

but tackled in a different facet

filled a hole the others couldn't

 

where David once was

there is now just a very large hole

(and David was a large man with a large heart and a large soul)

 

I had been friends with David Shifren for about fifteen years, our relationship deepening and evolving until his untimely death in 2020 amidst the Covid-19 pandemic, which triggered a severe lockdown in NYC. Leaving the city was possible, but navigating it had become exceedingly challenging with closed city blocks, enforced quarantines, and limited subway service. David, being the social person he was, suffered greatly from the isolation, exacerbating the heartache he had endured over the years. We shared many moments together, some of which are indelible, others unspeakable. His absence in my life, particularly this weekend with its significant news, is deeply felt; he was the one friend with whom I could engage in meaningful conversations over drinks. While I cherish my other friends, the discussions are different, not the ones I yearn for, and this realization intensifies my longing for him.



{Written for LJ Idol: Idol Mini 2024-Week 3: Without You}

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Here's hoping you enjoy reading long stories of true life agonies followed by quality memories . If that is your jam/deal/thing, then you'll love this. Be forewarned, it starts sad, then will get nostalgic, then probably meander all over the place but I promise I'll try to make it worth it.

As of now I have no idea when I'll get to travel outside of New York City again and when I do travel inside of NYC it'll be at the most to a convention as a press member covering the event that will give me a momentary mental respite. It could be as soon as late September that I go to another state or even country for just fun but right now that feels like ten years emotionally and physically away. Especially with what those three months will entail as I care take (take care of) my mother. I will not go into severe details, but my mother had emergency ostomy surgery in May and won't be repaired till Sept, she also has a skin cancer condition which is showing new symptoms and issues which require radiation treatment. I am her sole aide/care taker, especially after experiencing the care she received in a rehab center and now not trusting strangers with her care outside of doctors who know her case and issues and are experts in the field of that condition. I have chosen this life, I have no regrets and yet all regrets, for us to say we live without regret would be to lie to ourselves and our experiences but to also have regret lessens them as well.

Before all this though between 2018 to early 2024 I got to have many trips through the US (yes, during COVID, where I made a ridiculous amount of money as a census person). More than I had had in the 20 years prior even, having only traveled to Florida, Connecticut, Rhode Island, New Jersey and Philadelphia and one crazy life changing in ways trip to Canada (its another story and it involves my soul brother). Prior to that I traveled once as an adult after college to California. As a child I'd been to Florida, Ohio, Canada and even Denmark. It's that 2018-2024 period though that while recent past is the past I hold on to when looking to the future. It is those cherished memories in my mind and through photo, video and at times conversation with the people involved that helps me mold what is to come when this current ordeal is over and it is those trips I feel sharing now in encapsulated truncated moments with the worlds as it may be, reminding myself of great times and maybe giving those reading these stories that enjoy vicariously they almost feel they are their memories as well and help speak to a great future.

 

BOSTON 2018

I don't recall what prompted the Boston trip, but I organized a haphazard itinerary and did this trip with my soul brother Nick and his wife (the one he is with now, whom I adore). We got to walk the Freedom Trail, visit museums, see a graffiti alley, go to MICE which is a small press comics expo, eat amazing food and even go to the Isabella-Gardiner collection. In three days we really did tackle a lot, breweries, restaurants, the exhibits at Harvard, Cheers, Faneiul Hall, Boston Common, Fenway Park. It was just a long weekend but we shared a hotel, a car, meals and everything so it was just one those things that I know miss with Nick and Terri in Taiwan but one day.

 

ORLANDO 2019

My mother had seen an ad for Universal Studios and wanted to be able to go when she was still able to actually go on rides, do the water parks and spends hours and hours outside without a true break. I had been to Universal and Orlando with a strange group in 2008 but this would be much different. Being with my mom meant I was given full control of booking this. It was before my cat baby Tigerlily came into our lives so we also could go spend five days away with no worries. No worries were had at all as well. This entire trip was a dream. My mother had a blast. I had time to go explore downtown Orlando on my own going to breweries, snapping graffiti, and having an afternoon just staring at the birds in Lake Eola Park. Most of the trip of course was exploring as much of Universal as possible, all three parks and as much of each resort which was an experience itself with specialty restaurants and themes. I really would love to go to Halloween Horror Nights one day, but what I am waiting for any visits to Universal again is for Epic Universe to not only open but be in full swing and not surrounded by opening weeks mobs.

 

SAN DIEGO 2019

I am/was part of a group of people who met through the streaming app Twitch who became extra close. We were all mutuals, mostly of a UK friend of ours Jordan and created this tight community/family. Through it we made the crazy decision to all meet at Twitchcon and rent a beach house. Just 10+ people who had never met IN PERSON (but had done plenty video chats till awkward hours) agreeing to live together for 6 days. As crazy it sounds, it all worked out for the most part, I mean... it was 10+ people in a two bedroom beach house, there were problems... but it all was fantastic. The crew weren't as big on exploring San Diego itself as much as I was though, they liked just going to the con and then being on the beach most of the time. The last time I had been in San Diego was 2000 after college for Comic Con. I never really got to explore much of Gas Lamp or anything for that matter, so when I wasn't at the con or obviously making time to hang out with this family I did hit the town on the later days of the trip. I went to breweries, I went to the Zoo, I hit museums, visited restaurants the gang wasn't into. During this trip I also got to meet in person many other people from Twitch that I am still in touch with closely today. This trip has shared memories to last forever actually and on certain nights in certain streams those memories come back and discussion of one day having them again. These are the kind of memories you only get when you stuff a beach house with people of all sexes and sexual identities and races and cultures in a beach house for 5 days with booze, food, drugs, and love.

 

INDIANAPOLIS 2020

I went on this with one of my closest friends Sam who over the years I've broken up with and gotten back together in ways that has cemented THAT relationship (it is a very different friendship than I have with my soul brother). This was a wrestling trip, Sam is my wrestling friend (but we share many other things). It was The Collective 2020 and I knew that the majority of the trip would have us either at the wrestling or at the hotel and for the most part it was and that was awesome. If you follow wrestling in anyways there were plenty of known workers to hang with, some before they became major stars, others who used to be bigger stars and for me and Sam, many of them friends as well. I made a point on the day before and the day after that we DID see SOME of Indianapolis though. I took Sam to a railway graffiti spot as well as North Square which is the “cool” area that first day and the last day all over downtown Indianapolis of Mile Square, Lockerbie, etc. seeing the Soldiers monument, the mall, and small local stores. It was a fun trip and I'd love to see the city again … one day.

 

LAS VEGAS 2021

This was a completely “solo” trip. While it involved going to wrestling shows, it wasn't a wrestling vacation because those shows were not almost 24/7. I poured a lot into this trip. I had two friends I made plans to visit two friends made through Twitch from two different communities than the ones at Twitchcon 2019. Tightspot who I knew through wrestling Twitch met me at the airport and was a chauffeur for me to the rassle shows as well as being a wonderful friend.

I got to meet up with Smitty [who I also got to bump into at the con in 2019] on Day 7 of the 8 day visit where he took me to Cornish Pastry before I gave myself a long day of visiting the Arts District and the Beer District with ending up at Resorts World with a detour to Circus Circus. The google maps timeline for that walk or basically for most days of this trip were intense. On day one of the trip I made it to Luxor, Mandalay Bay and my hotel Excalibur. On day two I walked the strip all the way to Treasure Island and then back on the other side to MGM grand seeing the Volcano show, the Bellagio fountain, the aquarium and statues at Caesar's... and I also had a meal at The Wicked Spoon buffet and visited every bathroom available along the way. On Day three I spent the whole time at Boulevard Mall which has its own fairly large special aquarium exhibit experience and at the time of the trip a wrestling school which was where the first show of the trip was at. Day Four was the longest of wrestling days with one in the morning and one at night but Tightspot and I also walked Fremont and a large graffiti area, and ended the night at huge Karaoke show. Day five was my shortest, Tightspot and I had our last wrassles show and then I went downtown where I got to see a very long time friend and entertainer Kevin aka Jervis as well as Marty the Moth. I walked around for as long as I could before I physically broke down and went back to the hotel where I sat in a hot tub and under a waterfall before having an early night.

The half “spa” day was really good cause the next day I spent my entire time at Area 15, an entertainment complex of immersive art, food, weird stores, arcades and more. I spent eight hours inside MeowWolf's Omegamart taking in every piece of art, story, and lore they put into it. I then also got to go to one of the earliest openings of the now since closed [as of April 24th, 2024] Lost Spirits Distillery art and whiskey tasting experience, which I am so glad I got to have as part of my forever memories. I wrote about day seven already, so, on day 8 before going home I did as much as I could that I had missed prior and still to this day have plenty to go back for. I rode the monorail up to the Las Vegas Convention Center for Siegel's Bagelrama and then walked The Venetian, the Flamingo, Bally's, Paris and more before back to the airport and NYC.

 

DALLAS 2022

Another wrestling trip, another Collective, but this was ALSO Wrestlemania weekend. The Collective takes place days before it and takes advantage of wrestling fans from all over flying in for the extravaganza and has multiple promotions come together under one banner to present multiple shows over 3 days featuring many never before seen matches. Sam and I had different plans to tackle this so we booked our flights, stays and schedules separately. We also broke up for a day and made up during this trip as per our friendship. The wrestling took place at Fair Park which in itself has enough happening for a vacation much like NYC's Central Park, there are museums, a lagoon, a mini aquarium, plenty of restaurants, a nearby brewery and local other attractions. It also was easy to get to on the main trolley line. Although getting to home base/hotel usually needed an uber as the wrestling ran from as early as 9 AM to as late as 3 AM. On the 1st day before any wrassles Sam and I went to Buc-Cees, a world famous gas station/market with locations throughout the South East from Texas to Florida. One could write entire books on Buc-Cees. We also went to Deep Ellum, an area covered in street art, cool shops and restaurants and music venues which MUST be seen during the day and the night to truly appreciate and we explored downtown Dallas as well. Then it was truly 3 days of wrestling and taking in Fair Park. Although on the last night of the Collective I made a point to meet with my friend Windsor [who did not get to come to San Diego, but is part of that family] and take in some more of Deep Ellum at night and I wish I had let him guide my hand more and cared less about wrestling that day (but fuck regrets).

With the wrestling done (I skipped Wrestlemania), I had two days of Dallas to fully explore. I went to the Dallas Museum of Art and then met with another member of the Twitch clan, who DID stay at the San Diego beach house, Anim8 and we visited the Deep Elum Arts Festival. On the final day I did more than one should be capable of, but I arranged for a LATE flight home to intentionally do as much as possible. I walked through Design District and then hopped on the trolley to the West End, where I visited the Museum of Illusions, the World Aquarium Zoo, many shops and visions and then one last stop to Dealy Plaza where John Fitzgerald Kennedy was famously shot. It's a part of Dallas that combines old and new and despite the grimness is also beautiful. I headed back to the hotel and then had my first and so far ONLY experience ever of ALMOST missing my flight. They were boarding JUST as I was going through security. I was in luck that my gate was right after security instead gates further. That was wowsers.

 

NEW ORLEANS 2024

You may be wondering what happened to 2023? Well, I just never made it out of the city. Las Vegas and Dallas were both very expensive trips. My finances had changed. WM/Collective that year was in Los Angeles and way out of my budget at the time. Dallas also taught me I never wanted to actually travel so far to a place I had never been or ever got to to explore as an adult with 3 of the days dedicated to wrestling shows unless I was booked to perform or be on production which between 2018 and 2023 I had become extremely good at in NYC. That doesn't mean I laid low in 2023. I did plenty in NYC at multiple conventions, visits to Brooklyn and Manhattan, etc.

What caused New Orleans though? Well, this actually was another trip with mom, who back in February of 2024 was healthy and sprite. We have a mutual best friend, Pam, that we've known for 30+ years who is in between us in age and who over the years I have created my own special friendship with separate from my mothers friendship with her, so much so I consider her my soul sister. For the last seven years she and her daughters (whom I used to help take care of) and soon to be ex-husband had left NYC and were overseas, but circumstances have changed drastically and now Pam and two of the daughters were back and New Orleans was where they'd first be living. We decided that New Orleans seemed like an amazing vacation and plus we'd get to see people we loved more than pretty much anyone as soon as possible after they'd settled in a bit.

We found someone reliable to make sure Tigerlily was tended to, I rented us a two bedroom house and booked us a six day trip, all for under $2000 for two people with flight. On our first day/night we walked around the French Quarter with Pam and the girls and had dinner at Muriel's where I had turtle soup for the first time. On day two Mom and I went to The Ruby Slipper in Marigny for brunch and then walked along St. Claude Avenue for the street art and shops. At the store “She Comes in Peace” I bought a pair of earrings that get love and praise every time I've worn them at suitable events the last few months. We also got to see the well known street art piece by Bansky titled Umbrella Girl in person. After this we walked back to French Quarter and then along Riverside Park to meet Pam and the girls to visit Audobon Aquarium. A beautiful space, you'd think I'd get bored by zoos and aquariums after seeing them in so many places, but nope and never. After Audobon it was more French Quarter, for a small area there's so much to see in it. We got coffee and beignets at the world famous and original Cafe Du Monde, then mother and I explored more and had a delicious steak dinner recommended by a long time NYC street art friend living in NO who I unfortunately never got to see while there cause schedules. Day three mother and I had another delicious brunch with plans in the air based on the weather, after a short detour we ended up on a trolley to the Audobon Zoo where we met Pam and the girls for a long afternoon of animals and fun. Dinner was at Snug Harbor up at Frenchman St and we walked along Frenchman and then Bourbon till calling it a night. Day four I had to myself, mom and Pam did a Swamp tour and I did a DEEP DIVE into The French Quarter exploring graffiti, book stores, art galleries, the Pharmacy museum, food shoppes and more. I had drunk a very strong THC Lemonade and it kicked in just as I was on Bourbon Street at Willie's Chicken Shack. This was a mindmelt perfection of so much into my brain, of Bourbon and people itself, the fried chicken, being alone and the THC... it ruled. During this “trip to space” Pam and my mom returned from the Swamp tour and asked me to meet them at The Carousel Bar. It was too crowded there but it was cool to see, we had dinner elsewhere and then while waiting for the Uber back to the house saw stilt walkers in shimmery outfits. On our next to last day Mother and I went back out to the French Quarter as there was still so much we had yet to see, after brunch we met with Pam and the girls at French Market, then Pam, Mom and myself went to the NOLA Jazz Museum, saw a live concert I enjoyed so much I bought the bands CD and then it was time for a not so little Mardi Gras Parade, one of the first of the season La Boheme, which I turned into a few mini movies on YT.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hg1PC9QmTio&list=PLEDEZGcdcHNg6kLcvS8b_kLjRhA17vrYJ&pp=gAQBiAQB

Our final morning in New Orleans was quiet but sweet saying goodbye to Pam and having a small breakfast before flying back to NYC.

 

STUCK IN NYC 2024

Plans were mentally made for me to return to New Orleans on my own to spend time with Pam and possibly some friends, but those are backburned, as are plenty more. Yet without this past of fun and life I wouldn't even have the foresight of the future. I've been able to find my own fun in NYC via comic book events, wrestling shows, and conventions. I also was extremely happy when Pam's other daughter visited NYC while mom was in Rehab. As much as Pam is my soul sister, her first born has been my number one since she was old enough to actually talk and learn and teach, so I've survived off happenings like that as well.

Not only do I want and WILL by hell or highwater return to places like SD, NO and Orlando, but I want to go to Denver, the Pacific Northwest, and eventually even the UK and Taiwan and Japan. Without the trips I've had in my back pocket of knowing I know how to budget these and make them realistic when life allows again I would have nothing to look forward to, so I am grateful for my adventures and my adventures still to come.

{Written for LJ Idol: Idol Mini 2024-Week 2: Sankofa}

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I have made some severe mistakes in life, the kind that scar deeply but only on the inside. The kind of scars you only see if I tell you where to look. I have plenty of scars outside too, but telling you the emotional choice cuts? That 's a risk. A risk you can't always take with family, or even a loved one of the heart, but a friend... a soul friend, the risk still exists, but you take it. You take it especially when they have done the same with you.

I have been very fortunate to have a soul brother, someone who since college and the double digits of years since has stuck by me thick and thin through the best and worst of times, and vice versa and even for the last five years continents apart.

There was one particular night along the way that created this bond to be as insanely strong as it is. It speaks to mistakes done, mistakes to come and forgiving one self of mistakes and trusting each other in those mistakes to be “absolved” as it may be seen.


“The Bird Man”

The two of us alone

in the tiny one bedroom apartment

he has moved into

with his future ex-wife and her daughter

them away in another country

we choose a random time

to take our own mini vacation

a visit to another dimension

through natural means

 

at first all is fun

all is jovial

we are having an experience

on the spectral timeline

a shared universe

of mind expansion

but as it does

the real world comes crashing in

 

details are fuzzy

a phone call

a punched wall

crying and hugging

sharing and caring

 

as we come back up

or head back down

switching on the tube

looking for something

anything to break

the vibes

he a mess

I there for him

but still shroomed

eddie murphy's raw

does not hit right

curse words and insulting

films are all a garble

can not comprehend

somehow drop on a news report

 

a man was accused of bird molestation

there was a standstill outside his home

the fbi was involved

the man ended up killing the bird

claimed it was out of love

then killed himself

“a love murder suicide”

 

years since I can't find video

or an article

but we use it as a reference

to all the things we do

or have done to us

for all the pain

all the strife

every loss

every grief

every pain

every sorrow

 

we do not ever have it as bad as

'the bird man'

 

it's a setting point

a respect

we take each other at our absolute worst

and still support

because no matter what...

we do not ever have it as bad as the birdman.

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I think about that now in my current crop of life. One of my best friends 8000 miles and 12 hours away by time zone, yet still a phone call away, with my days now being a full time caregiver to my mom in her most desperate moments. My life on pause as it is. He enjoying his time with his teaching and life and current wife but still always finding new struggles in the everyday. Conversations of where we are mentally, emotionally and remembering that no matter what, no matter how bad it may ever seem...

We do not ever have it as bad as the birdman.

 

{Written for LJ Idol: Idol Mini 2024-Week 1: Someone who will love you in all your damaged glory}

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 A declaration of writing IDEK from prompts to see what happens in my most stressfull year in forever.
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I: Of Yesteryear
Memories are a strange beast
without visual proof or a word chronicling
they are at times all we can rely on
In 1984, 86 and 89 trips to Disney World
I can prove were real because photo evidence is abound
images of me in front of the castle with mom and dad
standing with characters in costume
my best friend Chris alongside me

Yet, the visit to Universal in Orlando
when I was still a teen in 91 or 92
definitely happened despite no proof
Vivid memories of the queue from
Back to the Future: The Ride
putting my father in a wheelchair
as medicine and science
had not yet caught up
so his Parkinson's which
got worse starting 1988
was wrecking his body
it wouldn't be till 98-2003
that he would get to have a bit of a second full life

It is strange to me to
have no journal of this trip
no photos, no videos
I have to rely on the fact
that I know Jaws attacked me
or that Kong rocked my world
Walking into the park
straight to Hitchcock
experiencing 3-D for the first time
staring at the recreation of Bates Motel
where if you looked tightly
you could see mother peering back

The visions in my head
are vivid as if they weren't
almost 30 years ago
of what I feel
were the last time
I traveled with both my
parents on an actual family trip
Memories are a strange beast
but one we love and cherish

II: A Different Time, The Same Place, Years Later
With Wrestlemania 24 at Orlando, my work and finances in an okay place for the time, it was the perfect excuse to finally meet a friend I am to this day still friends with. Although, Mike and I were out of each other's lives for a moment cause of where his life with his then wife on that 2008 trip headed. We refound each other in 2014 at a Chikara event. Mike is also no longer friends with the person who I had to spend the majority of my first day at Universal with.

At the time of the 2008 trip, Back to the Future was now closed and Simpson's Springfield was in construction. Because I wasn't there by myself or like minds (other than Mike) places like Mythos, Seussville, and the like were not explored as much as I'd of liked. Jurassic Park was much more basic at the time and I didn't get to take the river boat ride but did get to appreciate the dinos, fauna and caves making a truly immersive experience. I also got to indulge the Popeye barge and utterly loved it based on my own journals. How I describe Revenge of the Mummy shortly after the trip does not mesh with my memories. I feel a lot of the entire trip was blemished by who I was at the time, who I was with and how I was able to take it all in. I seemed to LOVE Men in Black, but not as much as my fellow mates who wanted to take the ride over 8 times before we stood on line for many hours waiting to get into the free Total Nonstop Wrestling show.

Back then I loved everything about that, and hell, if TNA was happening at Universal Studios now I might look into someone hooking me up with the connections I have now. Still between TNA and also having tickets to Ring of Honor at the time it definitely cut into my time to truly enjoy and explore what was open of Universal at the time. One evening a lot of the time of our day got cut just waiting in line for TNA and not getting in. It was time that could've been used at the park itself. Mike and his then wife had bought tickets to Paramore and had I known that Phantom Planet was the surprise opening act I would've joined them. That night I still got to see Blues Brothers and a magic show, but something was still lacking. The next night/afternoon we didn't have a full day at the park and was rushed with also having a reservation at Emeril's (which was absolutely amazing at the time, days later and in retrospect), but we had the Ring of Honor show to go to and again another one the next day which was also the day where we waited a long time for TNA and because I was with them, had to wait for them to play MiB.

Now I would not give up those ROH (or TNA) experiences for ANYTHING. Larry Sweeney, Jimmy Jacobs, Go Shiuzaki, Austin Aries, Frankie Kazarian, Angelina Love, AJ Styles, Genki Horiguchi, Kevin Steen(Owens), Tyler Black (Seth Rollins), Delirious, Lance Hoyt, and even Sting. This was 2008 and while they were all names they weren't the names they are now, but it still meant the world to me. Knowing I had that experience back then means the world to me now as well. Although if I could get back the entire day we lost to Wrestlemania I would. The less said the better. If I could have that day back to have been at Universal though...

My final day I was completely on my own, but did not have another ticket to Universal. Mike and his company were driving back to Georgia, leaving me to get to my late night flight back to NYC on my lonesome. Lucily I had made plans to meet up with a friend in Downtown Universal and originally he was going to show me around all day before taking me back to the airport, but wasn't able to get out of work. He did get me to a few spots though and then I managed the bus system to get to and fro before he picked me up to get to the airport in time. I had a lot of fun that last day seeing graffiti, going to a local CD store, a comic shop, and more.

When I was done I imagined being able to return to Orlando soon, but as the years passed that felt like it would never come.

III: The Future Adventures
At the end of 2018 shortly before my birthday my mother surprised me. She asked me if I would want to go to Universal Studios Florida with her on a mother/son trip. She wasn't sure of how I'd feel because just like I actually did in 2008 we'd be sharing the room. For four nights for the chance to finally go back to Orlando I can deal with a hotel room with my mom just as well as I could with two complete strangers and a friend I only knew via phone and internet.

She also has given me free reign on planning the trip out. I took care of the research, the booking of the hotel, the airfare, tickets, etc. In 2008 other than arranging for cheap tickets for me and Kellen at Universal (which I'm pretty sure I never actually got paid back for which is why I never felt guilty about some of the things they covered cost on that I didn't pay back), Michael arranged everything. Not because I wanted him too, but because he insisted on it and it was easier than arguing and also dealing with his wife who had her OWN things she wanted to do that had nothing to do with wrestling or amusement parks.

By having this complete autonomy for this 2019 trip I've sought out many things that are within Universal since back when and stuff still there that I look forward to immensley. In this modern era though I've also kept up with videos, tips and tricks. I know about the “secret” tours, the way to make $20 by watching a TV show, that Finnegan's is a not miss meal, the idea of single riders, etc. Plus while there a Mardi Gras like event happens at the park once it's dark so it's like two vacations in one. I also have a a new close friend of the past year who works at the aquarium on International Drive, so a visit there as well as I-360 is happening. I asked for advice from other friends of the Orlando downtown area and they suggested Mills50 as not miss, so that is definitely in the cards. As well as West Arts District, Ivanhoe Village and a few other spots that have caught my eye. We won't have a car, but Uber/Lyft would end up costing the same as renting a car that I can't legally drive and my mom would be scared to. I've marked craft beer bars, top rated local restaurants, mural spots, skateshops, tattoo parlors... just all the stuff that whenever I hit a town I like to check out to see local talent. Knowing my mom is either down with whatever I want or if not, being able to separate and she can be at Universal (Main, Citywalk, Volcano Bay, the hotel, any of the hotel pools or wherever she wants) and we don't gotta worry about when we'll meet up or anything just sweetens the pot.

I'm positive this trio will blow 2008 out of the gate and stratosphere and as for 91 or 92? Well, those memories will always be clear, but this time for 2019 I will have photos and journals and video and all that good stuff and maybe just maybe new inspiration and new breath. Possibly even a reboot.

 written for[Unknown site tag]therealljidol LJ Idol presents Literary Prize Fight Second Chance Idol-Topic Three-"Open Topic"

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I woke from under the tree

protected from the sun

into town I strolled

faces were a blur

everything unrecognizable

was I in my village

or far from home

the heat blazed

my skin blistered

people turned to lizards

refuge I had to seek


running backwards

I almost tripped

I reached the tree

it would save me

for now


as night time returned

I approached the village

cautiously

all were dead

nothing but empty husks

no blood, no guts

just hardened skin

emptied of everything


was I also devoid

in my attempt to avoid

sun's deep heat

had I surrendered my soul

did I have one

to begin with
 

were there people

was the village real

was the tree more

a monster maybe

that I offered myself to
 

these would be questions

to haunt me

the rest of my days

 

II 
FRANKENSTEIN, Agent of S.H.A.D.E.

In 2011 writers Jeff Lemire followed by Matt Kindt along with artists Alberto Ponticelli, Walden Wong, Wayne Faucher, Jose Villabura, John Kalisz and more created a tale based of the Grant Morrison re-imagining of Frankenstein from his series Seven Soldiers. Grant Morrison actually established much of what would come to be revealed further in this rebooted DC series prior in the event Final Crisis.

The series lasted 16 issues, collected in two volumes titled “War of the Monsters” and “Secrets of the Dead”. In the book Frank is a member of the collective S.H.A.D.E. ran by Father Time. Father Time has recently transferred his mind into the body of a 10 year old and has recruited The Creature Commandos for Frankenstein to lead into battle.

The Creature Commandos are long time DC characters who consist of a werewolf, a mummy, a vampire, etc. The version in this series while sharing the names of previous incarnations with a long and storied history based in WWII had an entirely new origin that existed solely within this series. Lady Frankenstein was also a part of the team. To fully explain her would take many more paragraphs.

What Lemire had laid down, Kindt was able to easily continue for what could be considered a cohesive two part graphic novel. This isn't surprising as they are very comparable writers who had collaborated before and since this series.

Alberto's art really makes these books shine. He's action packed, but handles quiet moments so well. I really recommend getting these two volumes if you have the chance. It tells a concise tale full of adventure, monsters, comedy, pathos and a satisfying conclusion.

III
SHADOW PLAY

One of the biggest parts of my photography experiments is seeing how light reacts to objects creating something new that one could hide under.
EDIT:(Photos.google is my new repository but it makes sharing hard, so here's a link/small folder made special for LJ Idol)

https://photos.app.goo.gl/3Y4naCAHmYJ2g3fy9



 written for[Unknown site tag]therealljidol LJ Idol presents Literary Prize Fight Second Chance Idol-Topic Two-"Shade"
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Pop-Culture and certain forms of genre truly only have one chance to grab you and then become part of your obsessions, hobbies, interests, and sometimes even careers. Folks who say they don't like something even after later finding something they do like about that thing, reflect back to that first time and therefore never change their mind fully. I luckily have never been a victim of this, I can always return and try again or find something else to see if that would generate interest. My prior experiences having no prior bearing. Although, for many of my loves, that FIRST time as I remember it (and in the end, memory is what matters, even with a first) cemented a love that became fairly hard to kill.

My first professional wrestling memory is of Starcade 1986 which featured almost everything wrestling can offer. Comedy, drama, pathos, acrobatics, men of varying sizes battling with neither having a true advantage over the other, loud mouths and clowns. The only thing missing was women. I didn't discover that wrestling really did have it all till later. Along the way though even if wrestling there were things which I didn't like which I later came to love and possibly vice-versa, although I'm pretty sure the things I really disliked vehemently are things I will always dislike (rude fans, story lines that lack logic (something I stand firm to in everything, even in the world of fantasy there should be a logic base that if crossed ruins everything). Over the years wrestling has been one thing that I've had waves of, dropping completely out only to be pulled back in. I've held many roles in it as a career as well, trainee, worker, extra, ring setup, show setup, manager, and now production manager for a singular promotion. It's something I take pride in and appreciate and love how much I am appreciated for.

The first comic book I remember reading and actually devouring is Watchmen. At the point I received this copy of the collected version (published not long after the miniseries had finished) I was already reading Robert Heinlein, Isaac Asimov, Andew Vachss, and the like, so tackling Alan Moore and Dave Gibbons' superhero epic was child's play. It was a perfect entryway drug though for all comics. I was at a comic shop regularly from 10 years old. (My visits to shops has died down, but if I'm in one it's still love). My collection actually became a thing when I won an actual collection of random stuff in over 5-10 boxes by winning a costume contest at a convention. It was 1989, I went as Batman as the first Burton film had just happened but decided I wanted to be 1966's TV Batman. Adam West just happened to be the judge and... my life was forever changed.

The earliest video games I remember are Various Infocom, Michael Crichton's Amazon and In Search of the Most Amazing Thing. These were all on my c64. Not much longer after that in the really formative year of being 10 years old came Maniac Mansion. When the first full color, hardcore game you played is a multi-character, puzzle adventure that many years later is still one of the biggest classics the love of video games will be strong. They will also steer a course for the type of games you enjoy. I never became big on shooters, or strategy or any of the popular versus games everyone is into. Games were an escape into interactive narrative for me. If I wanted to talk to others I would go on the internet to discuss the game after, but when in a game, I wanted it to have my full undivided attention. That is still the case today. I'm choosing that point n click, or the run around and do everything but talk to humans game before anything else.

Now when it comes to movies or television I can't remember my firsts but I'm feeling they were all things I loved as there is no genre I'm not a fan of in some way. Although I am that crazy social butterfly. Despite that there's plenty of things I never got into and there's no real reason for it. No bad first, just not gravitational pull to ever really even create a first. At certain point it doesn't matter if it's a first, third or fifth time. You are who you are, whatever lands, does so and whatever doesn't? It can keep trying and it won't be the first that failed... it just always will.

 written for[Unknown site tag]therealljidol LJ Idol presents Literary Prize Fight Second Chance Idol-Topic One-"First Impressions"

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 Gary and others demanded it...
so Second Chance and all that jazz.
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Art is subjective
From creator's vision to public's reaction
of love and hate 
dissension and acceptance
fame and derision
the same work is both masterpiece and garbage
popculture fantasy and affront to developed values
a layered atrocity built upon skills meant to invoke nothing
and a simple stroke of grande de magnefique portraying intricate thought and philosophical arguments
that last a millennia

Mona Lisa
The Starry Night
Guernica
Nighthawks
Casablanca
Stairway to Heaven
Howard the Duck
Know them you might
eye of the beholder what not
it takes a village, a city, a planet, a universe, a dimension, a family, an individual
a cat, a dog, a mouse
what might be right for some, might not be right for all
a man is born
he's a man of means
what he spends that money on
is it art? Because he said it's so
is it not art if he decides to not buy it?

If it sits on the road
ignored, is it not treasure still or garbage or both
if hated by most, but loved by few
who matters more
the art is still 
to be dissected, reflected, absorbed
as more art is made
generations pass
attitudes change, aesthetics evolve, devolve, revolve

what you yourself once loved
you now despise 
vice versa
deja vu is real simply
it has happened before
it will happen again
nothing changes
everything changes
what once was old is new again
give me something borrow
give me something blue
i'll give you the leather coat off my back
hand you a paint brush
do what you will
return it to me
love it or hate it
i'll wear it
i'll never call it 
not art
art is what you make of it
what you make is art
bad, good, indifferent
Subjective is Art
and so is Zack Snyder
 
Original Theatrical Date: March 25, 2011

Sucker Punch is an epic action fantasy that takes us into the vivid imagination of a young girl whose dream world provides the ultimate escape from her darker reality. Unrestrained by the boundaries of time and place, she is free to go where her mind takes her, and her incredible adventures blur the lines between what's real and what is imaginary.

She has been locked away against her will, but Babydoll (Emily Browning) has not lost her will to survive.

Determined to fight for her freedom, she urges four other young girls—the outspoken Rocket (Jena Malone), the street-smart Blondie (Vanessa Hudgens), the fiercely loyal Amber (Jamie Chung) and the reluctant Sweet Pea (Abbie Cornish)—to band together and try to escape their terrible fate at the hands of their captors, Blue (Oscar Isaac), Madam Gorski (Carla Gugino) and the High Roller (Jon Hamm).

Led by Babydoll, the girls engage in fantastical warfare against everything from samurais to serpents, with a virtual arsenal at their disposal.

Together, they must decide what they are willing to sacrifice in order to stay alive. But with the help of a Wise Man (Scott Glenn), their unbelievable journey—if they succeed—will set them free.

 

 

 
(https://www.warnerbros.com/sucker-punch)

 written for [Unknown site tag]therealljidol LJ Idol presents Literary Prize Fight Week 9: Suckerpunch
 
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